Mid-Week Blog-by

I’ve had a lot to talk about lately, and it’s only now that I’ve gotten the time to put thought to keyboard.  First off, the positive changes in my life continue to happen.  Mostly with the attitude that I carry towards life in general and more so with my ever blossoming relationship with Denise.  To say that she’s the best thing to happen to me would be an understatement.  I don’t know how to describe all of the ways we are connected, but it’s been the most natural and free flowing connection I’ve ever had with any person.  Ever.  It really feels great to finally be myself for once.  No judgment on my goals in life, the way I view things, my strong B-Type personality.  All that does not get wrongfully judged as some sort of weakness.  I love it!  She’s what I’ve needed for the longest time.  I’m glad I have one of the few genuinely kind and caring people to call my partner.  If only we could all be so lucky.


With that said, my future is starting to look a lot more different that I had envisioned before.  Instead of retiring to a quiet near hermit-like lifestyle, I have a vibrant future with a soul nearly perfectly matched to mine to explore everything that life has to offer.  I know this sounds like crazy talk coming from me, but I’ve never been as sure of anything about my life as I am about my coming future.  I can’t wait.  Now the trick is patience! 


In other news, things are starting to normalize as far as my personal schedule works out too.  I’ve gotten a routine down at work that makes the time melt away which therefore brings me closer to the end of each workday much faster than it used to.  After work, I keep myself busy with the gym, which I am still going to by the way, and if not that, Schola Cantorum practice, and if not that the occasional Searchlight Needles practice.  I’ll admit though, my constantly busy lifestyle burns me out quickly.  My only true day off is Sunday, so I try and make the most of it by doing nothing.  I’m learning to pace myself all other 6 days in order to maintain what little sanity I have left and although sometimes I bend, I don’t think I’ve completely broken yet.  Wish me luck with that! 


With that said, I better take advantage of the free time I’ve given myself to catch up on sleep!  I’m so damned busy that I have neglected my usual requirement for at least 8 hours of sleep!  My brain is beginning to rebel!  Time to play tricks back on the bastard! 








Take… THIS!!!! Stupid brain!

What the french, toast?!

Wow.  What a year this last year has been.  I have been sitting here in the dark thinking about it.  There are things that have happened that I didn’t think would happen, changes I’ve made in my life that have paid off well, and people in my life that have come and gone and it’s all for the better.  I know it’s been a while since I’ve even blogged, but it’s because I keep myself damn busy.  3 months is too long between posts.  The funny thing is that I always seem like I have a lot to say but when I try and put them to posted thought, nothing comes out.


Where should I start?  AHA!  I got it!  The recent changes in my life sound like a good place to let my fingers type away at.  Well, the first thing that comes to mind is that I think I’m finally getting my act together in the weight loss department.  After years and years of trying, shit is starting to finally work out for me.  I’ve lost a lot and I continue to lose.  It feels weird every day that I notice that I can fit into old vulgar shirts that I own that I couldn’t before.  I just have to keep on with fighting my body that seems to always try to find a way to sabotage my dumb ass into taking a day off at the gym.  I know one thing, that shit ain’t going to stop me.  I’m going to keep on keeping on.  I’m about a third of a way to where I want to be and I don’t plan on stopping now.  I’m pretty excited about where I’m taking myself.  It’s scary too, but oh well!


Along with shedding weight, I’ve also been shedding things that have weighed me down that doesn’t involve things I can fix at the gym.  I’m pretty proud of everything I’ve let go or not let me be influenced by.  I’m finally getting rid of poisons that have ruined me for far too long.  I’m better than that and I’m a better person for who I’m becoming!  And that’s all I’ll say about that!  😉


So, another big change and in my opinion the best and most important change is the fact that the most incredible woman I have ever known stumbled across me not too long ago.  It’s kinda funny how she found me too.  She admittedly stalked me before I even knew who she was, but in my true friendly fashion, she happened to follow me on twitter and as per usual I checked if she was a real person not a pornbot, and followed back.  I found her to be pretty funny, so I was looking forward to her future tweets.  After all, she still hadn’t tweeted much then, so I knew the best was still to come.  I went on about my business, tweeting whatever came to mind with reckless abandon until the legend Ron Jeremy fell ill with his heart attack.  I made a witty tweet about him, she replied, and after I replied, we haven’t really stopped that conversation.  It’s moved from tweets, to e-mails, texts, facebook interactions, calls, and videochats and although the conversation has moved on from The Hedgehog (because honestly, how much can one say about that dude, right?), I have found that I can’t be without talking to her for very long.  The crazy part about it all is that from the very moment I started talking to her I felt something very different about her.  Like I found a missing piece to some puzzle I didn’t even know I was trying to assemble.  It’s hard to explain.  All I know is that I never want to be without her.  That’s crazy coming from me too.  I am the person who had said not too long ago that I was retired from those shenanigans.  I had a plan to hide away and retire away in the quiet corner where nobody would ever find or bother me.  Remember when I said that?  Ha!  Now all I want is her with me.  The rest will fall into place.  With all that said, that’s a long way of saying that I am head over heels in love with Denise.  She is the most amazing, kind, beautiful woman I have ever been blessed to meet.  😀


God has a plan and all I’m doing is sitting back and enjoying the ride.  More from me later!  I gotta get back to it!  I love you all!