Forever a Clone

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Deep Cleaning

Conversations with friends lately and current events have got me really searching my soul lately.  I’ve really been thinking about a lot of things as these changes that are coming up in my life continue to march their way forward from the future into the present and that has reminded me about other things about what’s going on in my world.

I’ll explain.  For the longest time, I’ve always done things by myself and to be honest, I’ve loved every minute of it.  Sure, there were times that I had a girlfriend to join me in adventures, or the occasional best friend joining me in adventures be it road trips, films, what have you, but now I am finding myself 2 days away from my first of two quick escapes to my two favorite cities and it has dawned on me that I will have nobody but myself to please.  I don’t want that to come across as rude or anything, but what I mean is that there is not going to be any compromises as to what I want to do or how I want to get to my destinations.  I’ve realized that that’s how I prefer it.  I’ve been alone so long that it’s the way I’d rather have things.  Is that strange of me that the thing that I would always dislike the most (being alone) is what I prefer now?  That’s not to say that in the aspect of potential relationships, I’d tell a girl to kick rocks even if I was really interested because of this One Man Wolfpack agenda I have going on, but I don’t need it to be happy.  Does that make sense?  I only mention it and make a whole diatribe about it because of recent conversations I’ve had with close friends of mine about not being alone.

Not to gloat, but after praying and reflecting on things, I find my situation a blessing.  I don’t have any baby mama drama to deal with, no ex-wives to deal with, nobody to tell me what and what not to do but baby Jesus.  I am really free to do what I want within the boundaries of laws dictated by our Savior (most importantly), and what my chump change will allow.  Can’t beat that in my opinion!

That’s exactly what I’m going to do this Saturday.  I’m going to get up when I want to get up, get ready, load up my bestia, head west to Phoenix, all while singing along to all the songs I want to.  Who cares if a jazz tune gets followed up by King George, Metallica, Los Tigres, or *GASP* a tool tune!!!???  I sure as hell won’t!  I’ll sing along gleefully to each with nobody to please but myself.  The same will happen a few weeks after that when I go to my other favorite city in the world, Las Vegas.  The other great part about all of that is that those 6 hour and 10 hour road trips respectively will allow my brain to decompress.  To lay out all of the things that have been dirtying up my brain on the pavements of Texas, New Mexico (ugh… I strongly dislike New Mexico), Arizona, and Nevada.  It’s going to be a much needed soul cleansing, if you will.  Granted, I get 99% of that filth out every time I confess my sins, this will be the super deep cleaning that my mind, body, and soul needs.  Hours of solitude with nothing but music and/or podcasts, and the road to fine tune me and get me ready for all of the positive things that are to come.  I can’t wait!

Solo Deep 4 Life!!!!!

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