This is it. We made it, y’all. 2016 and its crazy ass has finally come to an end. Globally, I must say we had a pretty bad year. Lots of terrorist acts, lots of war, and lot of death of people who are known by a lot of other people came to pass this year. I know a lot of people are upset about it and have been taking note about how bad it’s been for us as a whole. I tend to agree with them, but in what has been my nature more strongly for the past 5.5 years, I tend to focus on the positives. I had a lot of positive things happen in my life this year. In January, I made the decision to not live with anxiety and a too large of amount of stress for me to handle and the positive outcomes came from there. I did fail, however, to get started on my weight loss goals but that’s to come later.
More great things came this year. Most notably, I cut half the commute from my drive to both work and my parish and moved to central El Paso and even though I didn’t have any reservations about it, I had no idea at how awesome it would turn out to be. Everything that I need or like is minutes away and the peace and quiet I get now is an even bigger Godsend. Another great thing that came about from my change mid-year was that a true nature I’ve always had really flourished like a wildfire. That true nature I speak of is my introvert nature. I’ve always had it, but it wasn’t until I was truly on my own that it just consumed me. I have honestly never been as happy in my life as I am now. It’s the greatest thing ever. Now, I have nobody to put a fake act on for, nobody to try to conform to, etc. I can truly be me now and me is that dude who would rather be left alone, hates and honestly feels sick down to my bones to be in a crowd of strangers for more than a few minutes, who loves to spend time with only a select group of friends, and who finds comfort in music, movies, and the general arts of all kinds. Granted, the last thing is something that more than just introverts to, I find that I don’t have to feel weird about my musical tastes because I’m liberated to be who I want to be without judgement.
With that all said, my very positive personal life changes has brought about resentment and probably a loss of friendships along the way with it too, but if you want me to be completely honest, I’ll say that if people can’t accept who I am, who I aspire to be, and what I stand for personally, then they don’t need to be in my life. Simple as that. I am sick and tired of being surrounded by negativity. Again, for the past 5 years, I’ve done my best at always living looking at the positive in things and people and I have completely stopped dwelling in the bad in people and in things. Sure, I’m aware they exist, but I refuse to let it consume me. I also never have held grudges, but even more so now I forget and forgive as Jesus told Peter in Matthew Chapter 18 verse 21,
“21 Then Peter came and said to Him, “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me and I forgive him? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven.”
I’m always going to be the same funny, happy, comedic (even horribly punny and cheesy), stupid moron. I have no time to say out loud or to myself “remember what this jerk did to me? F that person!” Nah, that’s stupid. I refuse to waste my life that way.
So, Sunday morning will bring on 2017 and the renewal of hopes and dreams for everybody, myself included. I’ve never been one to do New Year’s resolutions, but I will say this. I’m going to put my plans in motion to get myself in a better physical shape than round. (LOL!) and I will continue to be the person I am regardless of the consequences of the judgements of others. I’m going to be me and do what makes me happy. That’s pretty much stay home, stay focused on my weight loss, laugh a lot more, spend time with the friends and family that accept me for who I am and don’t want to change me, watch more awesome movies, listen to great music, and hopefully make awesome music too. I have plenty of room for those who want to join me, but if you don’t want to or want to get off the ride; I’m not going to stop you either. In the words of “King” George Strait, “I ain’t here for a long time; I’m here for a good time.”