I know I’ve been a slacker about doing this lately, and I know that writing is pretty therapeutic for me, so with that out of the way I gotta apologize to myself and whoever reads this for not doing this sooner.
Well, welcome to my newest blog post!!! I hope this finds you well. Hell, I know I have my ups and downs. Right now I’m on the upside of things. I like being on the upside. It’s way better than being in the shit. I’ll be the first person to tell you that being on the losing end of life is where I’ve been used to being, but I must continue to keep focusing on the positives.
Speaking about all of that, I was thinking about a few things over this weekend. First off, I was pretty damn proud of myself for getting back on track with my eating and exercising routine. By behaving again, I’ve managed to lose the pounds I’ve gained back since I’ve slacked it. That alone brought my dumb ass some confidence about the goals I still have set out to achieve. I was doing some calculations, and it looks as though I really have about another year of enduring this super brokenness I have going on right now. I put myself in this position and I have nobody to blame but myself. It’s one of those lessons that God was trying to give to me the past 14 years and all I did was tell him, “I know what I’m doing homie. I got this.” And what happened? I pulled my best Ric Flair impression and face planted more times than I can count. Idiots like me keep getting back up, and that’s just what I did. I think the past 6 or so months I’ve started to accept His guidance. I’m happy about that. All of those positive changes I started to make last year are really kicking into gear now. I’m continuing to get right with the Lord… thankfully he’s blessed me with allowing me to sing in a schola with a very talented cantor who I look up to for a lot of things. It’s what I’ve needed, and honestly, have kinda wanted in my life. Speaking of music, the band is going great as well. A new addition to the Needles’ fold has been nothing but positive. Looks like the sky is still the limit when it comes to us. Motivation, kids. That’s all that’s needed. Well, and I suppose a slight amount of talent too. Haha.
So, yes, back to my original point. 13 or so months from now, I should finish paying off the loan for my Beast and she will truly be mine. That’s 300 bucks that I will free up every month for me to put towards killing my other bills off. I’m so much looking forward for this year to pass so that I can get to that point. Freakin’ money is the only thing really holding me back right now. Normally, I’m a patient dude, but this wait is going to kill me! Once that goes, the next to fall will be my credit card shenanigans, then finally the larger loan. Soon enough, a new and improved Clone will come out to kick some ass. All told, I’m seeing another 2 years of BS. I can do another 2 years. I got that in me. It gives me time to focus on another issue… my health!
Yes, my health. I’ve neglected it for far too long. I made the serious commitment to change that last year and just like a freakin’ drug addict, I struggled to maintain my “sobriety”. I didn’t go back to square one, but I went damn close to it. That makes going back to the straight and narrow path of eating better and exercising an easy task. There’s an easy goal that I have in mind. I’m hoping to lose 1-2 pounds a week. That’s very reasonable. If I try and stick to that, I shouldn’t have a problem getting to my goal by my birthday in December. A whole new me in that respect as well. It’s going to be interesting.
So, there’s a lil’ update in a nutshell. A new and improved Clone should be ready for a grand debut next year some time. Consider this as your teaser poster to put things in film lingo. I’m going to try and blog more often, but until then stay safe! Don’t do drugs!
I love you all! Wish me luck!
Forever a Clone 