I’ve had a lot to talk about lately, and it’s only now that I’ve gotten the time to put thought to keyboard. First off, the positive changes in my life continue to happen. Mostly with the attitude that I carry towards life in general and more so with my ever blossoming relationship with Denise. To say that she’s the best thing to happen to me would be an understatement. I don’t know how to describe all of the ways we are connected, but it’s been the most natural and free flowing connection I’ve ever had with any person. Ever. It really feels great to finally be myself for once. No judgment on my goals in life, the way I view things, my strong B-Type personality. All that does not get wrongfully judged as some sort of weakness. I love it! She’s what I’ve needed for the longest time. I’m glad I have one of the few genuinely kind and caring people to call my partner. If only we could all be so lucky.
With that said, my future is starting to look a lot more different that I had envisioned before. Instead of retiring to a quiet near hermit-like lifestyle, I have a vibrant future with a soul nearly perfectly matched to mine to explore everything that life has to offer. I know this sounds like crazy talk coming from me, but I’ve never been as sure of anything about my life as I am about my coming future. I can’t wait. Now the trick is patience!
In other news, things are starting to normalize as far as my personal schedule works out too. I’ve gotten a routine down at work that makes the time melt away which therefore brings me closer to the end of each workday much faster than it used to. After work, I keep myself busy with the gym, which I am still going to by the way, and if not that, Schola Cantorum practice, and if not that the occasional Searchlight Needles practice. I’ll admit though, my constantly busy lifestyle burns me out quickly. My only true day off is Sunday, so I try and make the most of it by doing nothing. I’m learning to pace myself all other 6 days in order to maintain what little sanity I have left and although sometimes I bend, I don’t think I’ve completely broken yet. Wish me luck with that!
With that said, I better take advantage of the free time I’ve given myself to catch up on sleep! I’m so damned busy that I have neglected my usual requirement for at least 8 hours of sleep! My brain is beginning to rebel! Time to play tricks back on the bastard!
Take… THIS!!!! Stupid brain!