Hello once again, y’all! I hope this blog post finds you well. Things for me are quite in flux. Should I be surprised at it? No. I part of me wishes some of the aspects of my life were different right now, but I’m of the mind that God puts us in all situations for good reasons.
I’ve had a lot to be thankful for lately, actually. I have been kicking so much ass at my weight loss and the steps that I’m taking to get there that I’m actually pretty excited that getting to my target weight may actually happen a lot sooner than later. If it all goes somewhat well, I should reach my target somewhere in between October 31st and November 8th. Kind of exciting and scary all at the same time. I mean, how insane to think that if I continue with my hard work and dedication, just under 100 pounds will be shed by then. 100 pounds in 10 months… I’m trying real hard to imagine how I’ll look and I have no idea how that’s going to be, but I’m pushing all my chips towards the middle of the table to make that happen.
I’m wondering about a lot of things with that change too, actually. How differently will I be treated by everyone? How about in public? Will people want to approach me? Man, I hope not! Hahaha! I’ve been generally left alone for 38 years and counting, I don’t wanna start socializing now! Don’t get me wrong about it though, I’m not scared or nervous about it, I’m just really wondering how it’s going to be.
There’s another thing that’s been happening since I started this journey in earnest on January 1st. I’ve been openly happy about the results I’ve been getting so far and with that, I’ve been getting mixed reactions to my happiness. A handful of people have really sincerely praised me telling me encouraging words and such. Some others have been surprised and have also told me to keep going. Others have been really just MEH about it and seem either annoyed, jealous, or some other negative feeling towards me and my journey and I just can’t figure it out. Why is it that some people just live a negative life? Is it the fact that they get more satisfaction from talking smack about other people to boost their own ego? Or is it jealousy over the fact that they aren’t happy with themselves, yet they choose not to fix whatever is bothering them? Or maybe some other reason. I don’t know. This song here below has been around for about 4 years and goes very well with this topic…
All the lyrics in that song speaks to my question, but the main one is “Why can’t you be happy for anyone else?” That’s so true. We all need at least a little bit of positive encouragement. Hell, all words are powerful. I know, personally, I’m a very sensitive person. Words affect me a lot, especially when they come from people whom I love, and/or respect. Some people in my real world life just don’t seem to notice that their words have effect on me and they say harmful things. I hurt a lot and even though I hide it, words sting me for a long time.
Well I was told yesterday that in so many words to say “to hell with the people that aren’t going to be supportive of you!” and I tend to agree with that. I’ll just let those negative words slide off and focus on the positive words as I continue to make this transformation.
If there’s one thing I’d like to share for people who read this to take away from, it’s be nice to everybody. There’s never a reason to rude, disrespectful, or speak out of anger to anyone. We all need love and encouragement. Who knows, maybe the person that you offer praise to was just waiting on those words to get themselves through another day. Be nice, be loving, and live life in peace with each other, everyone. It’s amazing what we can accomplish together!