One Hundred

One hundred.  Wow.  I never thought I’d write one hundred blogs on my page, but yet here I am.  It’s hard to believe that still here writing my silly musings after so long.  Actually, I’ve been meaning and wanting to write about different things, but I had been holding out trying to make this post special, but right now I’m thinking that I’m just going to let my mind wander and see what comes out!  Apologies if I go a little astray.

I have been thinking back to November 5, 2011 when I first started posting here on WordPress and at that time, I was really just coming out of my suicidal episode and I was needing a positive creative outlet to let all of my energy free.  Mind you, I had already been blogging on MySpace (remember that, kids?!) and Facebook for a while before that, so writing wasn’t new to me.  Little did I know then that this little blog of mine would help get me through the many lows and the very few highs in these past 7 years.  I had no real direction for the blog and I still don’t now.  I like to write about the current events in my life or the world events that give me an emotional response and I thank you all for taking those few moments every post to read through it.

With all that said, we’re in the last 3 days of October now.  WOW.  Where has this year gone?  This has ended up being another year of change for me.  So much has happened this year.  It started off with a pretty cool New Year’s Eve impromptu get together with my sister and her family at my place, then quickly turned into a crazy 9 months of family medical drama that really tested not only me, but the bonds of my family.  I don’t feel I’m at too much liberty to talk about it other than to say just about that much.  Aside from that, though, I’ve had a pretty good year.  I’ve met new people and spent time with the people that I already love and cherish, and I actually took a vacation for the first time in years to an area that I’ve wanted to go and revisit since I cancelled my trip post near suicide attempt 7 years ago.  Since then, I’ve been settling into a new routine that allows me to finally have a free day so that I won’t go crazy and get into one of those overwhelmed bad moods.  Overall, I think everything is coming up Milhouse.

Now, as I look ahead to what’s coming up I’m getting really excited.  I know that November is going to fly by, especially with the two extra days off I’m getting thanks to holidays, then December is going to be an action packed insane month for me.  First off, even though I didn’t want to do anything for my birthday, my heterosexual lifemate and I decided to have, what we’ve coined “White Don” to celebrate my day of birth.  We’re gonna have White Russians (one of my, if not the all-time favorite cocktails) and mimosas made with the cheapest sparkling wine we can get and Donald Duck Orange Juice.  It’s gonna be awesome!  Then the following week, we’re going on a cross country road trip that one could only imagine about.  We’re flying out to Baltimore, Maryland then driving back to El Paso from Annapolis, Maryland making stops in more than likely Columbus, Ohio so that we can pay our respects to “Dimebag” Darrell Abbott and where he was murdered (a quick stop as it were), then overnight stops in St. Louis, Missouri and the DFW area before we make the homestretch back across Texas to our little spot on the map.  Some other cities are in the works there too, and in total we’re going to drive through at least 13 states on our journey.  I cannot wait!  Then the following week, Christmas arrives, then the New Year arrives and we start this crazy thing we call life all over again.

Speaking of life… funny how it works sometimes, right?  I’ve had a lot of happy moments lately that have made my days constantly brighter.  For one, my brother from another mother and his new bride had their first child earlier this month.  I still remember my eyes swelling up with tears when he told me earlier this year that they were expecting.  He’s such a good dude and it makes my heart so happy to know that not only did he find a wife, but now they have a child.  He’s gonna be an awesome dad.  I just know it.  I’m dying to meet this little dude too, but since they live way up in the greater Salt Lake City area, I’m not sure when I’ll be able to meet my new nephew.  Of course he’s not my real nephew by blood or marriage, but I consider my friend a brother and I’m taking on my uncle title with him with pride and love as I do my own two crazy nephews.  Another bright spot that’s been shining on my life lately is the remembrance of the bonds of close friendship that I have with a number of people in my life.  Just this past week, I got the chance to spend time with a friend of mine who I don’t get to see much since she lives in the DFW area.  That doesn’t change the fact that we have a very close bond and I mutual feeling of deep love and genuine friendship that even thinking about right now makes me feel warm inside as I thank God for having her in my life.  Being with her recently reminded me of just how great having true friendship in my life makes me feel.  Added to that, I’ve been having great conversations with other friends for whom I hold deep love and affection for lately as well so overall I’ve just been in a great mood.  I just hope that by sharing it and feeling good right now I don’t jinx it.  Fingers crossed, y’all!

So, there it is.  100 posts and I’m glad that this one is a positive one.  That’s what my life is now, really. I’m living a positive life with a few sprinkles of sadness mixed in just to give it some counter balance.  I’m glad it’s turned more positive than negative.  It’s taken me a while, but I think I got it now.  Here’s to another 100!  We’ll talk soon!

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