Holy smokes!!!!! Hey y’all! It’s me! I’m not dead! (well, if you’re reading this on Twitter or Facebook you’d know that already) I can’t believe it’s been since the end of July since I’ve checked in. A lot has happened since then. Another summer is in the books, even though it’s still in the upper 90s temp wise, I can already feel the turn of the seasons beginning. Another opportunity for camping, hiking, and outdoor sports adventures is pretty much gone and I did very little of any of it. Sadly. It always happens too. I always say AND tell myself too that “I’m going to go camping more this year, dude!” and “Man! We gotta go hiking like twice a month or something!” and every time I watch PGA majors I say “That’s it! I gotta get my fat ass back on the range to make sure I can still half assed hit a golf ball! That way I can go out to the course and play and not look like a complete asshole out there!” Nah. Didn’t happen this year. And again, I find myself saying “Well, that’s another summer gone. Damn.” We only really get a few of them to do what we want, you know? Sure my summers as a kid were a blast! Full of bike riding, playing outside, and general mischief with my friends. My summers from age 18-26 were an alcoholic blur at best, and for the past 10 years I’ve been really trying my best to take them in and enjoy everything that I can. I know once I get older I won’t be able to do as much as I would be able to now, and I’ll probably be indoors somewhere doing other stupid things. I know me; I’ll find a way to be dumb. So, I try to take advantage of doing the outdoors thing while I can. I failed this year though. Hahahaha!
What I’ve been doing this year instead of spending time outdoors is trying to get myself to get on this self-improvement kick that I should be on. I’m not talking about just getting my ass back to the gym, but I mean all around self-improvement. I’m finding my days are spent trying to psyche myself up to start getting my shit together and they fade into my designated bed time and the vicious cycle repeats again. I only really have Saturday to sleep in and wake up to the outline of light coming through my blackout curtains, but aside from that I am up early either to go to work or to go to Mass so that really messes with my need to relax and decompress, so I’m sure that has a lot to do with it. There’s so much that I need to work on. As I just mentioned, my time management sucks. I also waste a lot of money on stupidity because of my time management and laziness, so I need to get that straightened out too. Speaking of wasting money, I wanna try to cut down on my booze consumption too. Not because I have some sort of drinking problem, but just because drinking costs a lot of money, even if you do it like I do, at home! I guess writing this out tells me that the main problem is getting even more OCD with my time and schedule and the rest should fall into place. It will happen, I know it will. I’ve already started my journey down that road.
Speaking of road trips, I just came off a wild month of two road trips across the great southwest recently and the last one was very introspective. There were conversations that were had that really made me realize just how weird I am. This is what I mean. As some of you know, I am damn near militant when it comes to the organization of just about everything and I LOVE to have a lot of my life planned out. I need to know the next few steps in life before I make a move. I’m really cautious about things. That is probably 50% of why I still roll solo deep. Hahahaha! Funny thing though is that the things I let slide, I really let slide. For example, one would think that I would listen to music either by album, or at worst by artist only right? No. Not only do I not do that, but I prefer to listen to music on shuffle/random. Let those cards fall where they may. I love the fact that a Metallica song may be followed up by Duke Ellington, then Tupac. It’s nothing out of the ordinary to me and I actually look forward to the chaos of strange musical bedfellows. I do the same thing with my television watching. I cannot binge watch shows. I just get too bored, I guess. I usually have at least 3 or so shows on rotation in the middle of various seasons on HBO GO, Starz, and Netflix. I can’t just devote countless hours to watching multiple episodes of one show. I’m as eccentric with those whom I call family and friends too. I have always hung around with people from all calls of life. From the nerds, squares, cholos, band geeks, metalheads, and everywhere in between, I’m friends with all. I think I’m just a living contradiction to be honest. I say all of that to say that I really tripped out my best friend during our 20+ hours on the road to and from El Paso discovering, or rather, realizing all of these things.
So, here we are at the tail end of September. Fall is coming up on us which means short days (thank God), colder weather, and the holidays! I can’t believe this year is nearly over!! Where has this year gone? What have I actually done this year? A lot, when I look back on it. I explored more than I thought I would, I saw a few of my favorite cities, and I now I’m gearing up for a big milestone birthday in December. I really can’t wait for that either. Before we know it, 2018 will be here and we’ll start the party all over again. Let’s get at it, peeps!