A quick glance at my continuing journey of self-discovery
M.I.A. That’s what I’ve been. I suppose it’s with decent reasons though. I’ve had a LOT I’ve wanted to write about, but time has been kicking me around like nobody’s business. I don’t even know where to begin.
I think I should start with where my life events and mood have taken me over the past few months. The past 9 months have really been such a blessing and thoughts, feelings, and the way I want to live my life have been setting deeper into solid concrete than ever before. Some odd things have been coming out of my self-discoveries too. Friendships have been annulled, acquaintances have lost touch, and I think I’ve become more confident as to what I stand for and who I am because of it all.
If you want my honest opinion, I’m glad for the way things have been turning out in my life. I know I’ve said it before, but I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. Those pictures say a lot about how I really feel about things. Not to get into too much detail, but those phrases are put so beautifully into pictures up there got put to the test a while back and honestly, I’m glad they did. The situation reinforced the confidence in myself to keep on being exactly who I am and what I stand for. I know there are 3 sides to every story, but I’ll stick by mine.
Another thing that I’ve really noticed is that I am loving the routine I’ve given myself lately. For as much grief as I get for proudly waving my Type B personality flag and my INFJ flag on my social media posts, those personality traits of mine have really been allowed to flourish. I love the peace and quiet that I have when I get home from work. I find peace and joy from cooking, cleaning, organizing, and doing laundry in solitude (which I do a lot of, actually as those who follow me on Snapchat know). I know the extroverts that will happen to read this will cringe at the thought of me enjoying life the way I do, but I believe these three postings say it best:
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not turning into some kinda crazy recluse that shuns all human contact. I love my family. That’s what I consider you if we are friends and hang out, by the way. I don’t really have friends. I have acquaintances and family. I love spending time with the people that I love. They mean everything to me and I hope they realize that I’m just a bit weirder than they initially thought. Hahahaha!
With all of that said, I’m kinda shocked at just how quickly this year has gone by. It’s going to be April on Saturday morning! Can you believe that?! This year is going by too fast and I haven’t even gotten the chance to settle into it at all. April is going to be so busy for me. Lots of work, Holy Week right in the middle of the month, a Saturday of work after that, then possibly a band trip at the end of the month is coming up. Before I know it, May will be here and our album recording on May 27th will be upon us. Where am I going to find the time to go camping? Camping season around here is generally from April through October, so I’m already getting behind a month. I know that’s what my body, brain, and soul need… that weekend getaway from cell phone signal, other human contact, and city life. I need minimal electricity (only what batteries and my Chevrolet Suburban can provide), and what the wilderness can provide for me for a few days. Hopefully I can find a few times in May and FOR SURE in June to start to get my mind right.
I think that picture says it best too. Having a partner in crime would be nice. Not that it would ever happen. Ha!!!! I’m just too weird for my own good.
Until next time, y’all!