Forever a Clone

I'm just a clone, talking away while nobody listens


Have you ever noticed that the demeanor that you wake up with generally dictates the way the rest of your day will go?  I started noticing that about myself a while back.  Then again, a while back my life really sucked and I’d wake up bitter, pissed, depressed, angry, or a combination of a few or all of those feelings and sure enough the rest of my day would go to shit.  It was really weird.  I didn’t want to have a bad day but then I’d start to really notice the negative all around me and before I would know it I’d be caught up in it and I’d be just as negative.  I’ve always used comedy to liven up the mood or just be a clown, and I know that the majority of the really good stand-up comedians that have ever lived were pretty much miserable in their personal lives and would use comedy to get through their lives as well, but I have never had the guts, ambition, whatever you want to call it to write out ideas and try an open mic somewhere.  In it’s place, however, I have made a vow of sorts to myself to make every day a fun day.  A party, if you will.  That’s why if you ever notice my social media posts, I’m either making light of the comedy of things, being an idiot by hashtagging everything with thug life when my life is most clearly NOT anywhere near thug, and sometimes I tag party to it too.  Even you know me in real life, I’m always saying the word “party” as well.  I’m of the mind that you have to make your life a party.  What the hell, right?  Why not wake up with the intention of making every moment of your day fun?  Why not find the fun in even the mundane tasks?

I can tell you that having that mindset has helped change my life.  Sure there are times that are very few and far between where I’m not happy.  I can’t lie, I get lonely sometimes, I get bouts of sadness when I think of the bullshit that has happened to me in the past, if something annoys me I’ll go off on a rant about why that certain situation or whatever pisses me off, but mostly I’m all about making every day a party.  My negative feelings usually don’t last longer than a few hours or a night’s sleep.

With all that said, I think that after the recent adventures I’ve gone on, I want to expand on my happiness and start to really make an effort to do the physical activities that make me happy.  I want to go hiking more often, I want to go camping more often, I want to explore the places in the general El Paso area that I haven’t really explored before and take them all in.  I want to find the time and space to set my drumset up and play to my little heart’s desire.  I want to find the money to go out to one of the local golf courses and make more of an ass out of myself than I usually do on a daily basis.  I want to do all of those things because that’s what I like to call a party.  I try my best to tell everybody as my parting words “have fun” because that’s what we should all be doing.

So, what is it that you do that is brings the party to your life?  Do you do it often?  If not, I say you need to get on it, man.  Screw what other people think (unless it’s an illegal act, because all of that crap ain’t cool man.  Play within the rules, people.).  In the beautiful words sung by “King” George Strait on what’s become an anthem for my life “Here for a Good Time” (which are words I try to live by), “I ain’t here for a long time, I’m here for a good time.  So bring on some sunshine, to hell with the red wine, Pour me some moonshine.  When I am gone put it in stone, he left nothing behind’.  I ain’t here for a long time I’m here for a good time.”


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